Positive Self-Talk

I went for a run today. And I almost did a very bad thing: put myself down for not doing as well as I imagined I would.

I've re-started my 5K training program to kick-start my spring / summer running. I didn't run at all over the winter so I knew I wasn't in the right physical shape to just pick up my running schedule where I'd left off in October (I would probably pass out if I attempted to run for longer than six consecutive minutes!). So right from the beginning I went .. Only this time, instead of just running for the sake of learning to run, like my first run, I ran with a purpose: to speed train.

The intervals were simple: one minute running, 90 seconds walking. I pushed myself to the limit with every sprint I ran. At the end of every minute ran, I was desperately waiting for the little voice app lady to tell me to begin walking. I was close to throwing in the towel. But I didn't!!

At the end of the run (after I was done celebrating that the run was over!!!) I'd start to think back to last summer, and how much easier my running was back then, how it seemed so much more effortless compared to this time around, and I'd start to put myself down for not doing as well today.

Duhhhhh Mama, you're not in as great a shape as you were at the end of last summer! You're carrying on winter weight and running FASTER! Of course it won't be easy! Starting a running program never is! Stop being so hard on yourself! If a friend was in the same position, you'd be congratulating her for an amazing effort! 

But did I enjoy my run? Yup!

Was I happy with my results? Upon reflection, yup!

Did I succeed in running faster than last year? Damn straight!

Am I proud? You'd better believe it!

Am I gonna kick ass when I run next? YES!

I am so proud that I'm running again and I feel amazing. Sure, I may struggle through my runs but I feel fantastic at the end, I get that high that only working your heart will give you. I'm hot, sweaty, and smiley!

I'll remember not to ever put myself down. Maybe my runs are tough, maybe I'm slower than I'd like to be, but I'm RUNNING and that is way better than gaining weight on the couch!! :)

Runner's high!

The same thing can apply to my diet. I didn't do well this winter at all. I was pretty well the poster child for bad eating. I'm not proud of the choices I made (in fact, I try my best not to feel regret over anything in my life because everything happens for a reason, but .. I really do regret how I ate this winter!). Especially wanting to be a dietician - I felt hypocritical for wanting to teach about healthy living but not doing it every day myself. Sure I ate healthy - but it certainly wasn't balanced. There were a lot of unhealthy choices made.

I started to really get down on myself today about those choices. I mean, gaining 32lbs over seven months?! That's bad living! (Please don't judge - I'm hard enough on myself as it is for gaining so much!)

But instead of being mad about it and putting myself down, I'm using the regret I feel over my bad choices as fuel for my motivation to keep going. We stumble, we fall, but we take what we learn, get back up, brush ourselves off and keep on going. And that's what I'm doing :) Learning to live a healthy lifestyle doesn't happen overnight, and neither does changing bad habits. Patience and understanding in yourself is so important. Don't be mad when you slip up - it'll happen! Just learn from it, smile and move right along.

This past week and a half, hubs and I have been detoxing our bodies of all the junk we fed into them over the winter. We've been eating healthy homemade meals and lots of fresh produce and lean meats. We all feel great! (And tmi warning: we've all never been so regular, in the #2 sense!). I feel 200% better than I did two weeks ago when I wasn't eating well.

Some of the amazing meals we've been cooking up!

Each bump in the road is a lesson learned, and though I may regret my eating choices this winter, I'm grateful for the lessons I learned.

Healthy living has never felt so good! :)

Positive self talk is key in keeping on track with anything you are pursuing in your lives. My eighth grade teacher wrote this quote in my yearbook: "if you think you can, you will!". And it's so true.

Don't put yourself down. You've GOT this! I've GOT this!!

I had to throw these in here - my first pair of REAL running shoes!! Aren't they perdy!? 

This Past Month, In Pictures ..!

Hi guys!

Wow, it's been a while since I've opened my blogger app to write (type?) my thoughts.

I've just been having too many thoughts! Where do I start?!

This past month has been a whirlwind of life-changing decisions, all in the name of keeping a smile on my face. Remember how I told you all about my life rut? I'm working on digging myself out of it .. One step, one day, one decision at a time. I'll share them with you, soon. Until then, I thought I'd share some pictures with you that can describe my activities this past month.

Our Easter bunnies!

Team Lego has been focused on getting our healthy eating back on track. We've been creating things like ...

Strawberry - Marshmallow Pudding Pie (light!)

Better than diet coke: lemon-lime ice water

Homemade Mexican turkey burgers with lots o' guac, and a homemade spicy bean and corn salad

Roast beef, light swiss, light mayo made w/ olive oil, lots of baby spinach and tomatoes

Cobb salad with honey-mustard dressing and baked popcorn chicken pieces

We've also welcomed Spring with open arms and have been getting outside at every opportunity. Running season is HERE!!

The kids, hubby and I all ran for Boston

My sweeties, coming home from a family walk

Daughter Lego is all about enjoying the sunshine (and not being strapped down in a stroller!)

Running free on our favorite path

My boys being silly

I've also been very busy (stressed!!) trying to determine my career path (what school, what program, two years or four, nutrition or nursing, 4U or 4C?!)

College or University?!

Still on the hunt for a new job .. Finding a new job is a job in itself. SO many resumes, applications, and hours spent searching online. Something will come up. 

And I've been happily trucking away on my biology course. I absolutely adore what I'm learning. Everything is so interesting and fascinating! And there's a LOT of it to learn!

Good grades make me smiley

So that was a quick recap of my past month. How are you all doing? Are you enjoying the Spring weather? (notice how I'm choosing to ignore the snow we got?!) I"ll be back to blogging more often! :) Looking forward to keeping up with you! Have a great day!

Ruts and Stuff

Can I be honest?

Ruts suck. Big time.

They happen in all aspects of life. School, career, diet, foods, exercise.

Once you fall into a rut, it is SO challenging to dig yourself out of it. It requires a lot of determination, motivation, and plenty of hard work. For me, it can also mean growing a set o' man jewels and actually being brave enough to fix what needs fixing. 

I'm in a "winter rut" because I feel cooped up and just want to hand over my bus pass and walk and run everywhere like I do any other season of the year. If ever I want to go outside, if even only for a few minutes, it means taking a good 20 minutes first to bundle up the kids and ensure they're properly covered to handle the harsh cold weather. And then there's hearing them whine and moan throughout the time spent outside because it is too cold (okay. It's me whining and moaning.) Then there's the not having proper footwear for long walks (my boots are old and poopy).

Outside = smiles

My fix? I really need to stop letting winter be an excuse and just get out there - I'm so much happier when I'm outside, walking or running, even in the cold! GET OUTSIDE!

I'm in a "food rut" because the hubs and I haven't been trying new recipes like we always did. Our fresh produce isn't always affordable and we find ourselves eating a lot of the same things. Also, with school and work, we really have to make an effort to put in the time to make fresh, nutritious, homemade foods. I'm ashamed to admit that sometimes we are so wiped that we go with what is fast and easy, with health and nutrition being the last things in our minds. 

More of this, please!

My fix? I've decided to just give myself the kick in the ass - STOP being lazy and START fixing the diet. Nobody is going to do it for me. If I want it, I need to work at it. It's important to me and so crucial for my family's healthy growth and development! Keep meal planning and making time to prep it all is the best way to keep on top of it .. and not buying crap foods. If it isn't in the house, we won't eat it.

I'm in a "job rut" (which I've talked about before). I'm working a job I'm just not happy at anymore. I was when I first started it over five years ago, but now I just dread every shift and count down the minutes until the shift is over. I'm always taking vacation days and early leave to just get out of there. Yes, I'm in school and working towards a career that I will love, but until then, I just can't suffer through my current job anymore.

True story.

My fix? This is where I man up. I've never been a fan of change - I'm a huuuuuge security blanket kind of person. I dream of only working jobs I LOVE (which isn't a very practical dream for anyone, really) and I fear rejection and failure. My husband said it best - I won't find a job I'm happy at if I don't put myself out there and try new things. And while I'm working towards my dream career, I can try new jobs in the meantime. Maybe I will come across that job I could love, who knows? And if I don't get hired, it's not a rejection - that's just fate's way of telling me that the job isn't right for me :) 
(Side note: For those I work with - I am not putting down the job. It is a good job and a good company .. Just not for me anymore! If you are happy there, amazing! Keep smiling!)

Wish me luck in fixing my ruts .. Or not luck, wish me motivation to keep it going!! :)

Have you ever been stuck in a rut, or more than one? What did you do to help yourself out of it? Let me know, we can support each other!

First Run of 2013!

I RAN TODAY!!!

Okay. That's out of the way.

I'm not an indoorsy kind of runner. This is because I don't own a treadmill, nor do I have a gym membership (though I *might* invest in one in the future ..). I'm not convinced that if I had a treadmill or a gym membership that I would ever choose to run inside instead of outside (they are called the dreadmill for a reason!). I'm an outdoors runner at heart!

That being said - Canada, during the winter? Not ideal running conditions for this Mama. Mounds of ice and snow and slush make it super hard to run (and super easy to get injured!). My double stroller isn't of the jogging variety, thus making it impossible to push through the snow (and dangerous to run in the road!). Plus, my asthma does NOT behave in the icy air.

So, sadly, my running took a vacation during the winter. Too bad it wasn't in Florida! I admire the many of you who choose not to let winter stop you! Maybe that's something I'll ensure to work on next year, since I was so unhappy with being unable to run. Looking back, I wish I'd never let winter stop me .. But also knowing the struggles I'd have with my asthma, maybe it was best. Maybe I should have invested in a gym membership sooner.

Ah well. Coulda, shoulda, woulda. I choose to live and learn, not regret. Onward and upward!

I'm happy to say that I was able to get my first official run of 2013 in today!! My feet practically sang with glee as I slid them into my running shoes (which are in dire need of replacement!).

Since my normal running path looked like this:

I had to pick somewhere else with a path that I knew would be clear enough and safe enough to run with the stroller .. And so, I chose the streets of a nearby neighborhood.

I ran week one, day one of my Couch To 5K running app, which was SO hard the first time I used it back in June and so very simple this time around. I was almost giggling through it (1. Because it was so easy and 2. Because my bum jiggled a lot more than I remembered it doing on my last run .. Time to run that thing back into shape!). The intervals were one minute of running, 2 minutes of brisk walking, for a total of 20 minutes, starting and ending with a warmup walk and a cool down walk. It was so much fun, and the kids were happily cheering me along (good job Mama, almost there Mama!). It was great! Even though my favorite running pants were a little tighter than they were before winter ..

So that was my run. It was cool outside, but bearable, quite wet (I expected that - MELT, darned snow!!) and my asthma only bothered me a little.

Me with my favorite little cheerleaders! :)

I am running Ottawa Race Weekend's 5K this May (not the 10K as I initially wanted to do - I'm not quite there yet!) and really want to try for a PR, so I'm starting the running program from the beginning and picking up my pace. It's going to be such a fun springtime running challenge!

Can't wait for a snow-less, puddle-less run on my favorite path this summer! But until then .. The neighborhood road will do :)

Happy Springtime running, folks!

Homemade Granola Bites!

I've always been a huge fan of granola bars. They were often found packed in my school lunches while growing up, and were a favorite go-to snack when on the go. They're yummy, portable, and healthy .. Kinda ..

Sure, store-bought granola bars can have some nutritional goodness to them. We all know the health benefits of the oatmeal and whole grains they are made from. A huge downfall, however, is that they are absolutely loaded with processed sugars, which completely negates any of the health factors the granola bar presents. I mean, a handful of oatmeal isn't good for us when it's smothered in sugar, right? They're also full of fillers which aren't healthy or necessary.

And so .. I got to looking online for some at-home recipes to make myself. That way they are freshly made and I know what goes into them. Knowledge is power, right?!

A bunch of recipes I found either had too much sugar or required special ingredients that I didn't have in my pantry, so I had to mash together a few and tried it out - turns out my recipe was a winner!

Also, this recipe is quite small and doesn't make a big batch, so double (or triple) it if you'd like to have granola bars. Just one batch of this recipe made a delightful amount of granola bites, hence the name!

Recipe:

- 2 tbsp peanut butter (crunchy adds a nice texture!
- 2 tbsp honey
- 1 tsp cinnamon
- 1 tsp vanilla
- 1 C whole grain oats
- 1tsp ground (or whole) flax

Directions:

- Preheat the oven to 350F.

- Melt together the peanut butter and honey (stovetop or microwave, but caution - it doesn't take long!). Mix in the vanilla, cinnamon, oats and flax, and mix well (caution - the mixture is sticky!).

- Spread out onto a cookie sheet (sprayed down with cooking spray first!) and bake for 9 minutes. Divide into bites while still warm (or else they'll just crumble apart if you wait until they've cooled!). Cool down until they're nice and crunchy (yet still chewy!).

These nutritional bites are so perfectly yummy, not too sweet and not too crunchy - just perfect. Be sure to seal them in an airtime container or a plastic bag to ensure they don't dry out on you.

Feel free to experiment with different ingredients. When I'm stocked up on crushed almonds and raisins, I plan to make a new (bigger) batch! I also have almond butter than I plan to experiment with.

No fillers, no refined sugars, no junk ingredients - just a pure and simple granola bar (although, it's more an oat bar, isn't it?!). These, I am happy to give to my kids! Now if only Boy Lego liked peanut butter ..

Vegan Lemon Crisp Cookies

*Please note: this recipe isn't one that I would consider "healthy" because of the amount of sugar it contains. I just wanted to share it with you all because it was the first time I ever made a vegan recipe!*

Do you love baking with lemon as much as I do?! The aroma, the taste .. *swoon*

I participated in a snack exchange this past weekend and had the pleasure of shopping for someone who was vegan. I bought her a few snacks from the store but also wanted to give her something homemade, and after googling vegan snack recipes, found one that didn't require speciality vegan ingredients, just stuff I had at home (although I was out of lemons so had to pick some up!). I made a couple of adjustments to the original recipe.

I absolutely LOVE anything lemony so making these cookies was pure bliss for me (freshly zested lemon?! Yuuuuuum. I could smell that stuff all day, every day!).

They turned out really well! I preferred them straight out of the oven, because they were more moist and chewy, but once they cooled they had a delightful crispy texture and were such a treat to eat. Sssssoooo lemony!! :)

Without further ado .. The recipe:

1.5 C flour
1 C whole wheat flour
1.5 C sugar
2 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp salt
2 tbsp lemon zest
3/4 C canola oil
1/2 C + 1 tbsp lemon juice
2.5 tsp vanilla


Mix all the dry ingredients into a bowl. In a separate bowl, stir together the wet ingredients. Using a wooden spoon, fold the wet ingredients into the dry ingredients until thoroughly mixed.

Use a tablespoon to measure out each cookie, roll it into a ball, and place on a cookie sheet (I used a silicone baking sheet, but I'm sure greasing a cookie sheet would work the same!). Gently press down onto each ball with a fork. Be sure to leave plenty of space between each cookie - they spread out wide when they bake!

Bake at 350F for 10-12 minutes. Cool on a cooling rack. Store them in a sealed container.

Enjoy getting your lemon on!!

fresh from the oven!

The original recipe can be found here. I made a couple of small changes (like swapping the white-only flour for whole wheat) for some added nutrition .. and I added a touch more vanilla because I love the stuff :)

Captcha Warning!

Hey Guys!

Just letting you know that I'll be using a Captcha for comments for the next little while (those things that ask you for alphabet / number verification when a comment is posted) .. I know, they're a total drag, but I've been getting slammed with spam comments and really would like for it to stop before I end up pulling out my hair with annoyance!!

Just thought I'd give you all a heads-up! It won't be a permanent thing :)